Category: Dreams

Releasing the ‘burdens’ of your heart will be extremely important in the next few weeks and months.

It’s raining outside, I am listening to a song that remind me to a tragic drama that I watched when I was younger. I am still not used to this, to release any burden in my heart, I think I need more than a cup of coffee and a good music. It’s a bit hard to release things from my heart one by one when there are a lot of things that had been occupied my mind lately.

I got money issue, again, I am so sure that I bought nothing expensive this month, I only ordered a cup of soup at the restaurant the day I got paid, I didn’t buy any skincare or costly stuff or indulgence that I used to bought, but yet it is not enough.

I spent nights thinking what am I doing wrong? is it me who failed to manage my expenses? or is it actually just not enough?

But mysteriously, I always eat everyday nevertheless, I am never starving although I have zero money on my wallet, in the past three days, some friend always offer me food and I can drink water freely from my office. God is showing me that God is forever loving and I should trust Him/Her/it more. that everything is going to be alright.

Or Is it?

Or is God show me anything else? that I should ask and seek for more? Last night I had a really weird and intriguing dream. I was dreaming of hitchhiking a van to go somewhere, when I hopped in the car, there were three men who spat me, I want to hit them but I choose to be kind to them since I need the ride.

And then I am dreaming of dropping my phone three times, the third time it was broken, but surprisingly only the outer was broken, the actual screen was alright, I just needed to change the phone case.

When I was thinking about these, the three men and three times dropping phone are somehow represent my Job. I am currently doing my third job. I am not sure about its meaning, could it mean that I this is a bad job and I should looking for another one, or should I maintain it when thing goes wrong?

I like this job, but it’s not enough. Is it wrong to ask for more.

I am very grateful to have this job that help me pay the bills, feed me and give me a sense of worthiness. But like my first job, It’s not enough.

But I feel bad if I ask for more, is it bad? am I ungrateful? or is it good and what I should ask and seek?