Anticipation, sometimes I thought it only means to prepare for the worst, but I was wrong, it also means “I know the worst will come and I should do something about it”.
Or does it “Mitigating”?
Pfft… Mitigating? Well, I think that word suits my current condition. But surprisingly I didn’t feel as miserable as I used to feel, I’m feeling enjoying this thing, not that I like being emotionally tortured like a masochist, but, whining and crying and swearing around would never solve the problem.
I must admit that the fear is still there, the fear that what I did would never enough, or would bring me to a bigger problem. And I feel a little bit consumed with my own thoughts of planning, seems like I can’t find the best plan, so I just going to let it flow, let it be.
I feel better now. I can react better to every challenge that arrives. I think they’re right, I should face my biggest fear, embrace it, and it will dissolve.
Is fear an illusion, then?
Spiritual Journey of a Dandelion's Seed 